Yes, I stole that line from a movie….for whatever reason, I just love it! Today is Monday and, fortunately, it is an American holiday – Columbus Day. Yes, some people get this day off – even here in Germany. I’m writing in this little blog, while drinking a cup of coffee, and listening to the rain. It rains a lot in Germany and that’s okay. It’s cold here during the Winter and that’s okay, too. In fact, LIFE IS OKAY.
We all have shit in our lives in one form or another. We have highs, we have lows, even some in betweens (I think those are called “mehs”). As humans, a good majority of us naturally gravitate toward all that is negative in our lives and we take for granted the positive. Why is that? Do we paint our canvas a color that is more tangible (shit brown for negative) because we are afraid of all that is bright? WEAR YOUR SUNGLASSES, PEOPLE!! YES, shit happens…that IS life. Embrace the ooey, gooey, mess and rise above it! Find your tools of survival buried deep within that nether region of your soul (we all possess them!!) and realize that YOUR life is NOT shit…it is a masterpiece in progress.
One of the reasons I started this blog is because I went on a date with a nice man who was in the same place I am – dating at 50-something (feel free to read the dating blog…insert dramatic dunh, dunh, dunh music). I thought it went well, apparently he did not. Guess what happened?!?! Immediately I went into self-doubt, thinking something is wrong with me. I went into shit brown mode. The truth of my life canvas is that yes, there are plenty of things wrong with me – but plenty of things right with me, too. It very well could be that I may never get married again, or I might, but what is more important is to realize that my canvas is perfectly complicated with bright colors and the shit brown shades, too. I am beginning to embrace ME and my canvas and realize that THIS IS MY CANVAS. Paint away!
What is it to be ME? To be YOU? To be HUMAN? 